hi !! im a little shy online--i definitely have a problem w/ overthinking everything i say, n that stops me from saying anything at all a lot of the time, so thank you for bearing with me as i fumble around /gen
of course, i do love drawing, but i'm also interested in sewing, journaling, web design, needle felt, sculpting, and all other sorts of arts and crafts !! arts and crafts in general is something that is very valuable to me. i just really like to make things, it's much easier to express myself through art than it is speech.
i live in the middle of the forest in a tiny house, which was a gift from my dad, and i do try to decorate it cutely. right next to my tiny house is my dad's cabin, and my uncles cabin. we all live on my dad's private property, which is several miles of forest. we have our own lake, river, and vegetable garden ! i really love it here. we have all kinds of deer, frogs, bees, mice, wildflowers... it's honestly heaven on earth.
i do really love nature and animals. going forward, i'd like to spend a lot more time n energy helping nature and animals in as many ways as i can. it's one of the things that comforts me the most, so i really want to give more back to it.
trying not to overshare, i do have trauma, and it effects me in pretty much every single aspect of my life. i'm dissociating 24/7, weird things trigger me, weird things comfort me--that standard sort of thing. i'm really, really trying to get better, but it feels like no matter what i try i just can't move on. so, i definitely have an attachment to things that remind me of the safe parts of my childhood, which is 100% where my affection for cute pastel pink babycore/kidcore aesthetics comes from. i'm also trying to go for that animecore thing a little bit too, because nothing gives me harder nostalgia than animecore tbh. i was a self-acclaimed ""otaku"" when i was like, 8 years old.
so, like, if a reasonable person wouldn't show your account to a 10-14 year old (with the exception of cussing) please don't interract with me ! hopefully this is self-explanitory without making a huge list of super triggering topics.
a sona--which, in this case, is short for art persona, generally refers to when you draw art of yourself as an original character. a sona can be a 1:1 representation of yourself exactly as you are, or it can be very very different and really only represent a small part of yourself.
my sona, ellie--who shares a name with me--is mostly a direct representation of myself with the addition of bunny ears and a tail + angel wings, and is therefore quite personal to me. me and my sona share the same hairstyle and color, eye color, clothing, etc. we also have the same plushie (their name is marshmallow), backpack, and switch.
because i get asked a lot i'll quickly get this out of the way--fanart is totally okay ! to show it to me, please tag me or dm me on either twitter, instagram, or deviantart, @strawbunimilk everywhere. on instagram i also have a hashtag--#strawbunimilk. sorry if this is all a little awkward to outright say.
because my sona is so personal to myself, i thank you for allowing them to stay something personal. it does make me uncomfortable when other people use them, and i do think i have the right to ask people to not steal my sona. i really really appreciate that people like them, but i didn't make her to be used by a bunch of strangers. again i am literally just drawing myself with some animal ears, so seeing other people use them just makes me feel uncomfortable and weird.